Squeezing tightly my mother’s hand was my way of saying the final good-bye…
As I continued to detach from the physical body, my entire life flashed in front of me. Key life moments paused briefly to make sure that I carried no regrets or hard feelings to the other realm. There was no judgment upon that review, only a soft compassionate reflection. I remember my last thought carrying a smile, as my earthly personality found humor even in my final moments – a vegetarian yogi dies, choked by a big piece of meat! What a cosmic joke!
The other side presented me with absolute darkness everywhere I looked. I found myself floating like a cloud in the infinite vastness all around. Rather than being afraid, I felt a deep comfort and sense of belonging. I knew I no longer had a physical body, but that was of little concern to me. I already felt wonderfully free and expansive without it! The feeling of freedom was so magnificent that I could not get enough of this blissful sensation. The body I left seemed like an empty container from which I had just been liberated. I hardly believed how meaningless it now appeared! I was in pure, euphoric joy that I never wished to end. Not for a moment, did I question where I was. Instead, I felt ecstatic to realize that I died and yet… I am! I still exist! And I feel better than ever! To know all this was such a revelation.
It soon became apparent that I was not alone. A transparent being was watching me closely from some distance ahead. I couldn’t put a name to it, but was very aware of its existence. I sensed that it had something important to communicate. In the most loving and gentle manner, this presence let me know that my time had not yet come and I should go back. Although this message carried so much love, I did not expect to hear it. I deeply enjoyed my new state and wished to forever remain that way. Besides, my body was not capable of breathing thus returning to it didn’t make any sense. The being promised that my breath would resume and my connection to this place will never cease. It assured me that there was a greater reason for my return, of which I was not yet aware. But even those words were not convincing enough for me to go back. I truly wanted to stay where I was…
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